Yesterday M said to me,

M: Is there anything you are excited about, or do you feel like your life is just monotonous- like you are just going through the motions?

J: There are a lot of things I am excited about. I am looking forward to spring break, our tax return, your upcoming raise, going to Russia, adopting our little girl, etc. What about you?

M: Same things.

J: Why did you ask?

M: I don’t know.

Later…

J: You know, I don’t think that it is good that we are living our lives waiting around for things that hopefully will happen sometime in the future. We should be looking forward to our lives every single day. We should wake-up excited to start the day every day…. I think that is how other people live.

M: I don’t think so. I think most people live a droned-out existence- like nameless, faceless robots going through the motions of tasks that need to be completed.

J: (I had to pause & blink a few times here) Maybe some people are like that, but I think there are a lot of people that look forward to living every day. They probably have some rituals or routines that they really like doing. For example- someone might have certain TV shows that they look forward to, or have a ritual of sitting out on their porch watching the sunset, or reading a good book or talking with their friends, or I don’t know- stuff like that.

M: I don’t think so. I think most people just get up- go to work- sleep- get up- go to work- sleep (He was going through one of his pessimistic moods- he really does more than that)

So, I am asking all of you readers- Do you look forward to your life every single day? If so, what do you look forward to? Or how are you getting through the long "wait"?

Labels: self help for adoptive moms, waiting for referral