Waiting for my adoption Referral is ENDLESS!
I need.... a bath.
I rarely take baths. We don’t have a bath in our bathroom, only a shower. The kids have a bath, but usually their bathroom is not very pleasant for me to enter. This means that if I want to take a bath I have to scrub down their bathroom first. But it is so worth it.
First I set out my clothes for the day, got my shampoo, some new soap, my razor and face wash. I got out a candle (a good smelling kind) and put it lit in the corner. I put in some bubble bath with some very warm/ borderline hot water. I closed the shower curtain and it was my own private oasis -all steamy, hot and so relaxing. My sister had given me a gift earlier of this stuff called Artistry
Gel-Friction Au Sucre De La Collection Spa which I had never used yet (she just sent me this gift for no reason, how cool is that?). Anyway it is like a body scrub and smells tropical- it was so luxurious. I was just in heaven. I didn’t have music- a relaxing CD would have been nice. Sometimes though, silence is better. Either way, there is nothing like a warm bath to make you feel like a new person! Feeling stressed about adoption paperwork? Or endless waiting? I recommend it to everyone!
A bath doesn't fix everything though. Later on at church on Sunday- I was staring and smiling at this little 9 month old girl sitting on her Daddy's lap. I was looking at her way longer than a normal, regular nice person pays attention to a baby. She was dressed SO CUTE. I was very jealous. I was running through these different thoughts about how I could ask him if I could hold her.
However, the father must have thought I was some stalker, kidnapper because he eventually rushed his daughter out of the room giving me this (she's mine)look. I just smiled back weakly, apologetically. Actually he was probably not thinking anything of me. Probably it was just that I felt like a stalker/kidnapper. See what the waiting does to a person??
Labels: self help for adoptive moms