So summer is coming to an end

and I Love Fall

but I have been in a mood lately.

You know the "nobody likes me, everybody hates me" mood

Ya. Very mature of me I know.

Wasn't that a phase that was supposed to end in the 4th grade?

But seriously.

Sometimes Moms have it hard because

The world can easily start to revolve around the children and often the husband's work.

Moms tend to become invisible- fade into the background.

Their life value becomes what services they provide for others.

And support systems are often lacking.

Some may view this as reaching sacrificial sainthood

but frankly, I think it is the oppressive forces of society

So I have decided to get a life.

I am starting my own business.

There. Now that I said it I have to do it.

Outdoor, creative photography.

That's my plan. I am working on getting it organized.

The other thing I need is my personality back.

Really. I think I lost mine.

It got tossed to the way side with all of my hobbies, interests and sense of humor.

This is important because I also need some friends.

I mean I have some friends, but why can't we have friends the way we did when we were younger?

Why does it have to be such a struggle to get together with other women friends?

There is always a conflict. People are busy, or distracted or preoccupied.

And I understand. Often Moms just want time alone.

And it is WAY too much to ask for time alone and time with friends.

But really it's not.

I also need to get out more. Do more fun things.

On Friday M and I are going to see Disney Live!

O.K. I realize that it's a kid's show and we are bringing Piney (so it's not a date), but we won free tickets to it and it is getting us out of the house.

I also need to read more novels.

Something that is passionate, and intense and hard to put down.

Any suggestions?

Well that's whats going on with me.

Does it sound like a self-centered midlife crisis? My birthday month is coming dangerously close.