I'm back to my old diggs
! (With a little sprucing up from Elle
- Thank you again!)
I am really glad to be back to my old blog at blogspot
. I really didn't like Typepad
(because the pics are too small!), although I enjoyed my time working for Clubmom
I realize that it looks like a giant chunk of my life is missing. The whole story of my adoption has vanished from my blog. But it is not gone. I have 3 published books from my Clubmom
blog that tell the whole story and I will present them to Pineapple when she gets old enough. I am sure that the history of her story will be a priceless treasure. The first book is our journey to get Pineapple, the second is her first 6 months home
and the third is our adventures moving to Seoul ending with Christmas and the New Year. Quite an adventurous two years!
However, I look forward to the new year back in my old diggs
. It is nice to have our family all here- to have a lot of the rough edges smoothed out and to be calming down into a regular life. It is still a growing process with Piney
; however. We are still working on her feeling secure and trusting of others. As well as working on her articulation and vocabulary. I think the emotional aspects are a life long process with adopted children and I am prepared for that.
Pineapple received an American girl doll for Christmas. It is one of the baby dolls (not the older ones with hair). We have named the doll her original Russian name. Pineapple LOVES that. What is interesting is that she loves and cuddles and feeds her doll, pushes her in the stroller, makes sure she always has a hat and is never cold, etc. all the while saying her doll's name over and over. She tells me that her doll is crying and she holds her so tight and gives her a bottle, comforting her.
I wonder if she is healing her inner child.
Is she holding herself as a baby? Is she giving the love to herself that she didn't receive?
I am wondering if this is therapeutic for her or if I am just reading into it something that isn't there.
Either way, it is great to see how compassionate and affectionate she is with her doll. It shows me that despite her rocky beginnings
her little heart hasn't been hardened or broken. She has felt loved and consequently knows how to show it (even if it is a doll!).
Labels: after adoption: transitioning successfully