17 days and counting and the wait is making me crazier.

The truth is I AM feeling witch-ier than usual as we get closer to my goal day with no referral. So if it gets to be too much for you just throw a bucket of water on your computer and I will melt- thanks for putting me out of my misery. (Side note: You will also have to purchase a new computer for yourself, but what a great time to upgrade.)

You know, if June 24th comes and goes with no referral I will have to convert over to the dark side (Yes, Darth Vader has been calling for me at night- “Let your impatience over take you…”).

Don’t worry, if my goal day passes; I will try to use my words instead of my fists. No pounding holes into the walls or making cute designs with sharp knives in the kitchen table. I will take deep breaths and meditate into a better place.

But this stuff will only work for a short time; I can’t go on imagining my better place indefinitely. In other words, the clock is ticking…
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Note: Today's plan is to clean my house thoroughly. Someone told me a couple of days ago that if you feel helpless to control a situation, or if your life feels out of control at all then the solution is to clean your house really well. You will then feel at least a sense of control over your environment, and you will feel better about everything. So, today I am going to try this experiment and see if it works.

(Irrational Private Thoughts- cleaning my house will some how bring me closer to a referral, if it doesn't then experiment failed.)

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