As a child I lived a sheltered life. I was an unquestioning believer in what I was taught. In my little world this infused knowledge and faith was useful. I experienced miracles and strength. I felt protected and comforted. At the same time, I experienced disappointment, discouragement and frustration.

As I matured, I doubted and I became a truth-seeker.

I found truth-seeking to be difficult. There were too many illusions and mirrors. Too many ugly realities. Too much suffering. Too many mysteries. Too many contradictions.
I felt open and vulnerable.

I abandoned truth-seeking in favor of faith. I started to seek after goodness and happiness in the world and through the spirit. I sought after things that were virtuous and praiseworthy- things that represented love, caring, kindness and support.

I thought- why not place my hope in goodness and faith that bring a smile than in unanswered questions that bring a tear?

I know that all of my questions may not get answered in this life and I accept that.

So, with what I know and feel about life I choose hope, light, peace, goodness, purity, joy, service and connectedness.


I believe in the still small voice.

I trust in comfort and strength from heaven.

I believe my prayers are heard.


*optimistically waiting to add a little girl to our family (husband, wife, three boys & three fishes) through Russian adoption*

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